How long has it been?

since I've read Fountainhead. I think at least 7-8 years.

I was thinking about Peter ... had to look up it in Wikipedia... Keatings.

He showed his artwork at the end of the novel to Roark. But it's too late to become a painter. He has given up too much of his integrity.

Reading the synopsis in Wikipedia...

How startling to learn that I might represent evil in the form of Ellsworth Toohey.

"...a man who never could be, and knows it."

Yet, Ms. Rand is wrong. If you know you will never be the star quarterback, where does this knowledge lead you then? In a destructive path to plot a superstar quarterback's destruction?

Hardly. Actually, it's quite hard to admit you are just average. And how many quarterback's have created anything meaningful, other than colorful highlight footage, which are memorable and nostalgic but lacking in content. They may create creative "plays". Roger "the dodger" Staubach created many memorabilia. Here's a quote attributed to him. Confidence is Ego, no?

"Confidence doesn't come out of nowhere. It's a result of something... hours and days and weeks and years of constant work and dedication."

Ego comes from rolling the st0ne up the hill? Ego results with the realization of the Absurd?
No. Too much. You stretch the logic too thin. Confidence only comes if after all those hours you succeed at what you are doing. What about Rudy playing for Notre Dame? Never happened. But the joy was it the effort, no?

A dichotomy if you will. Was it rape then, like Roark's? The extinguishment of desire coupling with ego's creative thrust? All with detached and analytical humping.

I leave me to my masturbatory musing. Fountainhead/Football/and killing a carrot.